I don’t think I’ve ever finished my coffee when it is still warm, let alone, hot. This morning was no different. I woke up before anyone else, fed the dogs, brewed a cup of coffee, and then let it sit there while I unloaded the dishwasher – all the while, thinking to myself, “my coffee is going to get cold, I should just sit down and enjoy it, but first let me…” Fill in the blank.
Maybe it’s because it was a snow day, and there wasn’t any real pressure to rush through my morning, but suddenly it occurred to me, if I wasn’t intentional about drinking my coffee while it’s hot – it’s always going to get cold before I’m done with it. So, again, because it was a snow day, and nobody else was yet up, I decided to just sit down and drink my coffee – to just hold it in my hands, not set it down, and simply savor the flavor. Literally, since I drink decaf – it really is JUST for the flavor. And if I’m being really honest, it’s really the half and half and rounded teaspoon of sugar that have my heart.
So, I took my warm, not hot cup of coffee, because it did sit on the coffee maker until the dishes were all put away – which was what I was doing when I had my epiphany about hot coffee and the need to be intentional if I want to drink it that way – and I sat down in my desk chair in the office. I thought about all the times I go out for coffee with my friends, and wondered if their coffee ever got cold, or if they were intentional about drinking it while it is still hot. I wasn’t sure, because even when I’m at the coffee shop with my friends, my coffee still gets cold. Maybe it’s because I talk too much. Note to self: Talk less, listen more.
Still holding my coffee, I tried to be content just sitting by myself in my office. I tried looking out the window at the falling snow, but then I had an urge to look up the weather again on my computer, which would mean putting down my cup to accommodate typing with both hands, so instead I spun my chair around and faced the La-Z-Boy recliner – the chair I probably should have been sitting in to begin with.
A little frustrated with myself, I wondered why it was so hard to quiet my mind, and just enjoy a still moment alone. “Help me to just be, Jesus,” I heard my heart whisper. “Help me to quiet my soul, so I can hear from you.” And then, holding my coffee in my hands, I imagined Jesus sitting across from me in that La-Z-Boy. The legs of the chair weren’t extended, He wasn’t reclined…He was just relaxed. And in that moment, I didn’t want to leave.
I asked Him what He wanted me to know, what His plans were for me that day. And then I just sat there. I wanted to really capture this moment in my mind as He modeled that thing which my heart wanted most. Discipline. Not just in the big moments of life, but in the quiet ones, too.
Then, in the stillness of my “empty” office, I heard Him whisper to me the one word I need to remember in this new year…
Embrace all of it. Embrace family, and friendship. Embrace joy and sorrow. Embrace promises yet to come, and wisdom gained from the past. Embrace warm cups of coffee and cold cups of coffee.
Embrace every moment, and every ounce of life.
As I took my final sip of now cold coffee, I couldn’t help but smile. My coffee was cold, but my soul was content. When I am intentional about spending time with Him, my heart is awakened in a new way over and over again.
Jesus is always intentional, even in – and perhaps more so – the quiet moments.
Teach me your way, O Lord, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name. I will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart; I will glorify your name forever. For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths of the grave. Psalm 86:11-13 (NIV)
– Kimi Miller
Director, Lifegate Women